Monumental Moments

James 1:2-4
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Grief has a weird way of showing up, but last night I could not sleep well. People have told me that it gets easier over time, but I would like to change that mind set. Grief does not get easier but how you cope gets manageable and strengthens you. Grief is hard! Grief can hit at unexpected times like last night! I could not sleep but began to think of memories of my mom and what I loved about her.

Waves hit the shoreline and changes the look and feels of the sand! Grief is similar as it comes in waves and changes our thoughts, feelings, and outlook. Grief has a way of hitting us in ways that are not always expected! Especially in losing a loved one deer to your heart. Grief can hit at moments you wished to share with that person, doing things they love to do, or being somewhere with a deep memory! However, one thing can remain constant which are the memories! Memories help us remember the people we love and hopefully direct you to who you want to be!

Grief is hard and that is ok to admit! Grief came today in my heart and thoughts! I lost one of the biggest cheerleaders in my life on this day 22 years ago. Throughout the night I reflected on her love for people and life. I realized that a monumental shift happened in my world the day she passed away! Memories of her laughter and love for life came flooding in my mind last night! I realized one major thing, I want to be known for my laughter, love, and life just like my mother!

Today, I was hiking with a long time friend, her son, and of course Freckles, my dog. It was a great day to be on a trail and reflect on what kept me up part of last night. My mom passed away on September 17, 2002. Ironically we chose to hike to monument rock today on the day I had a monumental shift in my life. Our hike to day to Monument Rock reminded me of the shift in my heart this day 22 years ago. I went from an ordinary high school girl who loved life to an angry teenager. To quickly wanting to love like my mom did and like Christ does!

I remembered all the memories while staring at the monument rock with my dog freckles and my good friend. As i looked at all the uniqueness this rock in the picture has in the middle of trees and bushes. It represents power and strength. This rock has embraced and survived all the hail, snow, wind, and rain over time yet also enjoys the sun. Yet all can cause structural changes over time. This reminded me of life and trials we have to persevere through. The process of grief that happened after the monumental shift was not easy, but without that shift I am not sure how and when I would have experienced Christ’s overwhelming love in my life. His love surrounded me through friends and community during the darkest days of my life.

James talks about finding joy in the trials and temptations of life. I truly believe if you can find joy every day when we wake up no matter what life throws at you, your day will be better. Joy has a was of transforming our minds and hearts to be the love of God. Seeking joy allows us to remember the good in the midst of the hard times in life. Joy allows us to face life and persevere! Perseverance makes us stronger and allows God’s hand on our lives to make us perfect and complete in His eyes. I challenge each of you to find joy each day! See how that can transform your view of yourself, life, and God!

Lord,
I hated when my mom passed away and that I felt alone in that moment! But you brought community i did not know I had or needed in my life. Thank you for how you work in through each of us for others to experience your Love! Allow each of us to seek joy this day and each day to come. Thank you for reminding me of the goodness and joy in my life that I bring to the present from my mom’s life! May we all find joy and love to persevere through life! AMEN.

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Whispers of Aspen Leaves

A couple of weeks ago I spent a few days at my cousin’s cabin deep in the mountains where you hear only the whispers of the aspen leaves. I sat there on their deck looking out to hear the rustling of the Aspen leaves. I went there to process what is next in my life and have some time in God’s creation. Little did I know, my dog was going to teach me about presence!

The next morning, I heard the whispers of the aspen leaves hiking with my adventure buddy, Freckles. We hiked a couple of miles back into the valley near the cabin! It was beautiful and off the beaten tracks. He all of a sudden paused and looked out to the valley, and then looked back at me! It was like he was telling me to just be present with him! We sat there together in silence and enjoyed the sounds around us and each other. He I heard the leaves and was surrounded by large aspen trees. At that moment, I reflected on Psalm 73 that I had been reading and reflecting on for the few days I was there. There are a few verses that the Lord kept reminding me of how close He is to me and He is the strength I need to lean on.

Psalm 73:26-28
“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Those who are far from you will perish; you destroy all who are unfaithful to you. But as for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds.”

In this time of transition between jobs, I have been reminded of the Lord’s presence in my life. Being in the midst of the aspen trees and looking out to the valley reminded me how I am surrounded by the Lord’s presence through people, His word, and my heart! The view alone was a reminder of the Lord’s presence! My dog reminded me in the moment to take in the whispers of the trees and pause! I needed to listen and to take a moment in order for the Lord to work through me and teach me! He does that often now just sits to take some time to enjoy moments with me! This is what the Lord desires from each of us! Spend time to hear His whispers.

Lord,
I felt stuck in a place where I wanted to serve you but felt like I was not being seen but some people. You took me out of that place and placed me in your arms. Your strength and comfort are guiding me to seek you and seek the future. But for now, I am taking time in your presence like my dog showed me to enjoy moments! I do not want to take this time for granted! I want to see you and feel you! AMEN!

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Glimpses of God

Psalm 8
(1) O LORD, our Lord,
how majestic is Your name in all the earth!
You have set Your glory
above the heavens.
(2) From the mouths of children and infants
You have ordained praise
on account of Your adversaries,
to silence the enemy and avenger.
(3) When I behold Your heavens,
the work of Your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which You have set in place—
(4) what is man that You are mindful of him,
or the son of man that You care for him?
(5) You made him a little lower than the angels
You crowned him with glory and honor.
(6) You made him ruler of the works of Your hands;
You have placed everything under his feet
(7) all sheep and oxen,
and even the beasts of the field,
(8) the birds of the air and the fish of the sea,
all that swim the paths of the seas.
(9) O LORD, our Lord,
how majestic is Your name in all the earth!

Occasionally, God provides us with moments where we catch glimpses of Himself or His Kingdom on earth. It is when we see moments of heart-wrenching beauty through His creation and the created, and through actions of faithful followers of Christ such as, compassion, forgiveness, reconciliation, redemption, mercy, grace, and love. These moments are not of this world but the Lord’s handy work.

Falls is coming when the trees, bushes, and grasses are transformed, I am reminded of the Lord’s artistic hand in creation. The colors of fall transform the whole scenery of a mountain side from all greens to vibrant fall colors. I always see God’s artistic side in the colors he transforms during the fall. The beauty of creation becomes a new beauty of reds, oranges, yellows, and browns.

Life is truly a profound gift that we need to be present for to appreciate. When we are present, we can notice things- simple things- that often do not attract attention. These glimpses of God are often seemingly simple moments, but they are treasured gifts which we are blessed to see, experience, and even participate in from time to time. My desire to is to be about these visions- these glimpses- whether that means simply noticing them in life, writing about them, or creating them.

Prayer:

Lord, our lord how majestic is your name in all the earth! I pray to open our eyes to the transformation happening in our own lives and the lives of people around us. Lord let us see your artistic work in your creation and in your created beings. Lord our Lord how majestic is your name in all the earth! AMEN.

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Listen (Shema) to Love

“The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’  There is no commandment greater than these.”
Mark 12:29-31

Before the verses above, Jesus was asked which one was the most important of the 600+ commandments in the Torah! I imagine the person asking was curious how Jesus would place one commandment higher than the others. This person’s curiosity drew them to Jesus. At that moment, Jesus paraphrased Deuteronomy 6:4 and Leviticus 19:34. Jesus met this person in their curiosity. The command he quoted starts with the word in Hebrew, Shema, which means to hear or listen. Listening is the foundation of our call to love God and love our neighbor! If we zone in on the word, listen, it is one of the most common words in the Bible! In some form, it appears over 1500 times!  

Jesus reemphasizes the point that to love God and others, we need to listen to God and listen to others actively. We cannot live and love without being in tune with what the Lord calls us to do or what others need! It is impossible to live and love without listening! Listening allows us to be present with the Lord and the person in front of us. Active listening is when the hearer can repeat what the person said.

This skill is something I practiced often in years past. To be a person of presence, one must hear. Hear from the Lord and hear the person you are being present with. If we do the tasks at hand, we miss out on a relationship and conversation we could have. I learned this when I was a case manager for teenage mothers. My supervisor regularly asked me what I learned about one of our residents today in conversation. I never imagined using car drives to learn about someone and be present with them. I started asking better open-ended questions because teens are the queens of one-word answers. My supervisor taught me to use each moment for purposeful conversation. This allowed me to build relationships naturally. Then, when they came to my office for meetings, I had built a bridge of trust and respect from our daily conversations.

Active listening is crucial in building relationships with others. When genuinely listening to the person in front of us, we should not be distracted. Being fully present with someone means we are focused on the person in front of us, not on what I need to make for lunch, what I should say next, or what task I need to accomplish. I need to be able to shut all of those thoughts off! Then, I can truly be fully present and hear what they say.

For me, I ask the Lord to clear my head and be able to hear the person I am going to be present with. I need to make a to-do list before going into a conversation. This helps me clear my head and not think about tasks at hand! I desire to be fully present with others and with God!

What do you need to do before listening?

Lord, please fill our hearts with your love in order to be faithful to your guidance. Push us to listen first and respond second. Listening allows us to hear and to love! Lord, Send the Holy Spirit to quiet our minds and hearts to be fully present with you and others. May we hear in order to love! AMEN.

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Where do you find Joy?

When I think of the word joy, I picture myself on a hike, at the beach, or in the rolling corn fields of South Dakota. I find joy in being with friends and family while in some of my favorite places to hike, relax, or have a bon fire. I love exploring new places and finding places to rest and recover amid God’s creation. Creation reminds of God’s wisdom, love, and faithfulness in my life. Where do you find joy in your life?  

I remember multiple times going to various lookouts in the Black Hills of South Dakota to look out over the Needles. Its breath taking to think about how the needles came to be this grand formation of rocks sticking up in the middle of ponderosa pine forest. When I am in awe, I remember who the Lord is and what he does for my life! Even in the highest of highs, and lowest of lows we are called to find joy!

In this 3rd week of Advent, we are called to remember Joy. What does Joy mean? Joy has multiple different meaning to different people. Some would say joy is happiness, and others would say joy is the source of delight. One definition I have when I think of joy is

In Psalm 126, the Hebrew word for ring cry, shouts of praise, רנה, is used three times. In the beginning of the psalm, the shouts of joy and praise are amid experiencing God’s blessing of being let free! Remembering all the great things the Lord has done should bring us joy (Psalm 126:2-3). Then the psalmist continues in looking forward to what will or may come. Calling for the Lord to remind them of their captivity and evening amid sorrow and pain one is called to find joy (Psalm 126:5-6).

Psalm 126 reminds me of the song Titled “Joy” by Rend Collective. The beginning of the song is breaking out of freedom. In other words, out of captivity.

“We’re choosing celebration
Breaking into freedom
You’re the song
You’re the song
Of our hearts

We cast aside our shadows
Trust You with our sorrows
You’re the song
You’re the song
Of our hearts”

Then later in the song it transitions to how the Lord is constant and the song of one’s heart. The song of the heart always bring joy and is the joy of the writer’s heart.

“In the shadows
In the sorrows
In the desert
When the pain hits
You are constant
Ever-present
You’re the song of my heart.”

Does not matter what we are at, but we are called to praise the Lord and find joy!
The Joy of our lives is the Lord and we are called to shout with joyful praise to the Lord!

Where are you finding Joy amid a world of chaos? Where do you need to go or who do you need to be with to find joy, hope, and peace?

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